Work gives a sense of fulfillment hard to find in other places, and seems to be used as a substitute for a lack of happiness throughout my life. I’ve always had a very low base level of happiness, as soon as I get acclimated to a situation, it resets. I have sought psychiatric help before, but it didn’t work for me. I guess I’m what a sympathetic parent would call “different”. The 11 3 2020 Undo The Damage Shirtv and advice that would fit most didn’t really fit me, and talking was little aid, so I eventually left.
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I decided to start again with a blank slate as a personality, to try to find anything I could attempt to understand about myself, which made it much harder to relate to anyone, combined with the 11 3 2020 Undo The Damage Shirtv I find it very difficult to emote at all. I still have a few friends and family vaguely in my life but I try to be emotionally self-sufficient these days. I focus my energy in areas other than people.