Needless to say, I’m terrified of letting someone touch me in a 6th Anniversary BTS Signature Shirt relationship. Even once I get past trusting that they won’t hurt me somehow, I worry that I won’t be doing any physical touch for me and will instead drain myself from within for functionally being a meat-puppet. It eats me up inside thinking about how my relatives think I’m genuinely hugging them back. How will I live with myself if I know I’m faking affection with a person who wants to share their life with me?
6th Anniversary BTS Signature Shirt, ladies tee, tank top, hoodie and sweater
I was touched a lot as a baby, but ever since I can remember (literally) I can’t recal becing touched in ways that I liked or enjoyed, at least not often. The 6th Anniversary BTS Signature Shirt I can remember is painfully angled hugs with weird-smelling strangers/adult aquaintances someone doing my hair (which was often painful) and getting whoopings. It’s probably why I don’t associate touch as being a comfortable or wanted thing, (it doesn’t help that I absolutely dread being tickled).
I feel like by the 6th Anniversary BTS Signature Shirt people started offering touches that were positive and not back-breaking or otherwise uncomfortable I had already dissociated touch from anything comforting, so none of it felt like it was out of a built relationship or a developed physical language, just out of a “well this is what you’re supposed to do when..” (accept when I was actually in a really good mood… which was often not in public)